Christmas 2011 

So I have had a generally nice christmas! .. I never really get in the christmas spirit anymore; not now that I am an adult and have all the worries that come with being a student who is unemployed! .. But yeah, I enjoyed my christmas day, got a few nice presents like perfume and I got the new Friends boxset (I had all of them on DVD but in series sets but I gave them away as I wanted the anniversary edition) I also got Lion King and Tangled on DVD and some chick flicks. Had a good dinner but my mom does a roast EVERY Sunday so it wasn’t any different from those really other than the fact that it was Turkey on the plate! .. I went to Ant’s house in the evening which was nice but he was ill so he was sleeping a lot! 

Christmas seems to have gone so fast! Plus it was my 22nd Birthday on the 23rd, that went super quick too. I got some perfume (people must think I smell lol) and Ant got me some clothes and little bits like fashion jewelry!

So next its New Year Eve, I’m still unsure about what I am doing but my Mom wants me to spend it with her! So I think I am going alcohol free so I can split the night between her and Ant :) .. Then Monday we are off home to Bristol!  

Monday Plans….

Okay so my list of things to do today!! … 

- Eat! 

- Do some more Biology revision cards

- Watch DISNEY MOVIES!! I think I’m going to watch Beauty and the Beast and Cinderella :) I might put 101 Dalmations on too because it makes me feel Christmassy because of all the Snow!! ..

- Watch normal TV

- Cook some Dinner

- Go bed!!

Bit of a boring one really other than the disney movies!!  

I hate having no money… I need some new glasses and I want some contact lenses … Glasses hide my eyes and I’m no big head, I just think my eyes are my best feature! .. So yeah I need fucking money!! 

Bed Timeeeee….

So I’m about to go bed (yes it is only 9.55pm) I have to be up early for uni tomorrow which is shit! But going to watch Horrible Bosses in bed :) … Hoping it’s good! 

Goodnight fellow bloggers :) 

You know whats funny…

when your stepdad who is over 50 years old deletes you off facebook and blocks you! Over something petty, to be fair I’m not clear of what I did?! Apparently I ruined my brothers 18th Birthday according to him… my brother doesn’t agree with him. What’s also funny is that out of his handfulls of kids, even though I’m not actually his, I treat him with respect, I speak to him like an adult and I can actually have good conversations with him. What’s not so funny is that it bothers me when I know it shouldn’t, it bothers me because as far as I’m concerned he does treat me differently to the others, you can tell I’m not his, even though he has brought me up since I was practically born. It’s ridiculous and immature behavior and he does so much that I don’t like but I bite my tongue about! But I swear now that in future I’m done biting my tongue, why should I? It’s not like he gives a fuck about how I feel so why should I bother to care about hurting his feelings?!

bristol living …

Hey long time no post lol! Been settling in at Bristol! We have been here just over 2 months now and I am getting used to it more!! I’m not so keen on the Bedminter area but I think we are going to move next year but it’s not that bad! Anyway! My course is great mental health is so interesting!! .. The one thing I hate about Bristol is the roads! Driving here is a bloody nightmare!! But yeahhh I can’t be bothered to write anymore lol! :) peace!! 

I have been living in Bristol since September 1st now! I love the city and Uni is really good but I just can’t relax and enjoy it there yet because I have like ZERO in the bank! My student finance is messing me about and my Nhs bursary is ridiculously low! I am so fed up of worrying about money and when I get money it goes on my bills like my shitty car! I have never been so broke for so long! I need to find a job but my course is so intense I am going to have to turn into super woman to pull of a job and studying! I just feel pissed off that I am trying to further myself but I (and thousands of others, i know) feel like I am expected to afford to live off of nothing! The cost of living goes up but pay doesn’t! How am I supposed to live off £308 a month?! seriously! … The stress of it all is getting to me! And with the way unemployment is at the moment finding a flexible job that I can do when I am expected to do 16 week of placement over the next year is going to be difficult to say the least! But anyway! Other than money worrys I love it there and my course is brilliant! I know I have it better than a lot of people but I can’t help feeling weighed down at times!

Update!!

Soooo I passed my maths GCSE which I had to pay like £250 to re-take… I also got confirmed onto the Mental Health Nursing course at UWE :D ! Also me and Ant move into our flat next Thursday which I am really excited for I can not wait to live in Bristol and for us to live together!! .. A lot of exciting stuff going on now! I only have 4 more shifts left at work which I am also really happy about, it’s my last day next Wednesday!! I just want next week to hurry up already!!!